'So Bored I Could Scream!'

'Agggh, I am so bore I could offcry! I strike up ab forth studying, taking up so much of my living and yet as soon as it make believes to the weekend I find myself hoping that the date goes quickly so that it is Mon mean solar day again as the days go much quicker during the week. I opinion as though I stern make plans to couple up with friends, go to the cinema or out for dinner with the boy. Even rightful(prenominal) go out for a run. notwithstanding in the long run whats the mention? If I learn up with friends or go out with the boy well make food which pull up stakes invariable take in go acrossing bullion that we dont need to die and consuming unneeded calories which I exit then chew up myself for later. Essentially everything seems diminished as ultimately , and I withal when Im doing something else that I jollify, the second that it is over Im derriere to studying somewhat...Im stuck and I deliver no idea how to take up out of this shady hole of blaseom.\nI watched the film Stuck in Love yesterday, and the lead character give tongue to something that really resonated with me: I never make out anything. Im always wait for whatevers next. I think everyones like that. surviving life in fast forward. neer stopping to esteem the number. Too crabby trying to cargon through everything so we can get on with what we are really supposed(a) to be doing with our lives. I get these flashes of shining clarity where for a second I stop and I think Wait, this is it, this is my life. I better slake down and enjoy it because one day were all difference to end up in the undercoat and thatll be it, well be gone \nThis is hardly how Im touch sensationing at the moment, but I dont know what to do to change it. Its blue to think about it but its accepted that at the moment I feel like I never really enjoy anything, not really. I have times where I feel knowing(ish), I definitely dont spend my days in floods of tears or feeling as if I want to end it all. exactly generally I feel attractive meh...just dull. Not happy or melancholy but a little eager and most of all, bored!\nI am ... '